God's words of encouragement

 

 

Lately I have been finding comfort in books.

I was not a fan of books until I touched these books lately.

There is so much wisdom in it.

This journey has begun for me before I even realized it.

I did not know I started grieving before my husand passed away.

I knew I had to mentally prepare for his passing to avoid shocking pain.

Counselor said people who started grieving cope better than those who did not.

Friends say I am strong. I am not sure if I truly am.

I just know I have no choice.

Who is going to protect me if I crash?

Who is going to look after our apartment?

I am on my own now. I think this is innate survival skill.

I relied too much on my husband. He was in charge of most of the things at home.

There are so many angles to look at this drastic change.

A way to learn independence or a punishment of past mistakes

Either way it doesn't matter.

I am on my own now.

What upset me a little few days ago was I found out that 

our marriage certificate is void once one person passes.

I now have a big question on my mind is

WHO AM I NOW?

WHAT IS MY STATUS?

I think I cannot move forward without knowing the answers.

What should I say when I meet new people?

If I tell them the truth, will they turn their head away? 

I hope I will find my peace again.

 

This afternoon I played with frame-me app on my iphone and made these 4 pictures.

I enjoy them so much. 

It is good to know I can still be creative.

Life is still good.